The weather was so beautiful here in Oklahoma over the weekend. Record high temps (almost 80) for this time of year made it difficult to realize that it's still Winter. Of course today, you would never know it with the temps dropping down to 30 and a bit of snow is expected this evening. We hope so at least. Switching from AC to heater is really doing a number on our utility bills this year. There's been little to no precipitation since before Halloween which has made it extremely dry here in Oklahoma. Going on two weeks now there have been numerous amouts of fires in the state. We've been under constant fire danger in our area. It's bad enough living through Spring with threats of tornados. (I'm so thankful we had a tornado shelter built here at our house a few years ago.) But, thats Oklahoma weather for ya. Just give it a few days and it'll change. Of course, i love the change of seasons here in this part of the country and wouldn't trade that for anything in the world.
The boys continued to try my patience over the weekend, sighssssss.... thats one of the things they seem to do best. I feel like i'm such an evil witch to them when it comes to punishing them for their behavior. It breaks my heart when they get angry and tell me that they hate me. I just wish they could understand that i'm trying to teach right from wrong and to listen and respect what i'm trying to do to help them grow into responsible and kind adults. One day i'm ready for them to grow up, wondering if i'll ever see the light at the end of the dark tunnel when they have pushed me to my limits of parenting. Then next i'm thinking how much i don't want them to grow up and that one day soon down the road i'll wish they were once again 9 and 11 instead of 19 and 17. Oh, that thought really scares me only because i remember what i was like at that age. I still keep looking around for that manual they were supposed to have sent home with me from the hospital when i had them about how to raise boys. But seeing them grow up is oh such a treasure. The weekend was spent cheuffering them around from bowling league to basketball practice and games. I love watching them play, and improve themselves year after year. It amazes me how much better they improve themselves and their skills in such a short amount of time. Oh how time flies when we're having fun! Something i keep trying to tell myself.
Then hubby surprised me with an early surprise Birthday celebration on Saturday night with some of our friends. It was a great dinner and a few martinis too. I thought that was very sweet of him to care enough to try and make my quickly approaching Birthday good. And it was nice but i've not been very excited at all about turning the big 40, sighssssssss. I don't know why. It just is hitting me very hard. I'd much rather just forget about it all and skip that day. Sadly though, i wasn't in much of a party mood because our friends (also our neighbors) who we were out with, will be moving out of state in a few months. He's is one of the supervisors at the GM Plant here in OKC that is being closed and they are transferring to another plant in order to keep all their benefits and such. That really bums me out because they are truely the best friends we've come to have, ever, since being married. We all get along well and have so much in common. It's gonna be a very sad day when the moving van pulls out of their driveway. I feel like such a loner and just wish that I had friends like I used to have when I was sighsssss, YOUNG.
And i'm still sitting here staring sadly at boxes of Christmas decorations that need to be put away... putting behind yet another year of in the life. But they will sit there until that dark, cramped and cluttered attic can get cleaned and straightened up enough to make it a little less than a war zone when you try to get up there to find or put anything away. It really is scary to go up there. And hubby won't let me do it alone, says it's too dangerous for me to be up there while i'm here by myself in case i was to fall down outta the attic. I can be such a clutz sometimes and guess its a good thing he looks out for me and cares enough about my safety.
So i'll continue to trudge along here doing my same ole everyday things... cooking, cleaning, laundry, being the best/mean mom i can be. Trying to be a good girl and blogging religiously (when i can think of what to blog about) and daydreaming of hhmmm, ohhhh lets see. How about wishing for my Birthday that i could only get those delicious, naughty, but soooo nice Birthday spankings that i was so lucky to experience once several years ago. Never to forget that one.
Peace and be well my friends until next time.....
